New Moon Post 3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This can’t be possible! How much worse can things get? Edward LEFT! HOW? HOW? HOW? I can’t imagine being any more miserable! Edward gone, Bella lonely…
I honestly cannot stand reading this book. I have decided to finish it in some way, but only after vowing never to pick the book up again.
Just after Edward left and Bella was found in the forest, I put the book down, experiencing a rather major breakdown. I could NOT believe it! She just cut her finger! That’s no reason to leave! But, on the other hand, however reluctant I may be, I have to admit that Edward did an admirable deed. Not just anyone can quench his or her deepest desires for the best. I really admire Edward, and I can’t bring myself to hate him. I can only direct all my anger, sorrow, misery, helplessness and tears (yes, tears) towards their situation. None is at fault; no one can control their circumstances. This is just the way things work, and it is over the heads of me, you, Bella, Edward, and I bet even the most powerful vampires. All we can do is read on and mope.
Well, actually, I did enough of that. I vowed never, ever, EVER in my life to pick up the book again, to just dwell in my own miserable bubble that Edward and Bella were never meant to be. And I continued for days. Sulking over the misery and pain of the book. (I went overboard) I actually wore black the next day to school and I never ever wear black, just on funerals. I was depressed beyond imagination. There was nothing any one could do with me. I didn’t answer emails; I didn’t go on face book, I barely ate and I wandered aimlessly around the house for a long time. I even called my friend and shared with her my vow never to read the book again. Of course she told me I was ridiculous and it was only a book. It was and is so much more for me!
And obviously, I did break my die-hard vow and continued reading, in hope of a better ending. Will Edward be back? I can only hope and read.